—well, garbage, I guess I have to say—but I won't know for sure until I've let it sit for a while and force myself to read it.
I'm in serious awe of anyone who can hold a day job and do this too.
It's been consuming all my time and a great deal of my attention for
four weeks. I've learned a great deal about my own writing process as well, but I'll have to ponder that for a while too before I can define exactly what that is.
This novel may never get published, but I can always look on it like a music student playing scales: I learned a lot that I can later apply to actual performance.
What kept me going through this wrenching procedure was reminding myself
that if I wasn't going to be serious about this writing thing, I had no
business quitting my day job. Either I'm a writer or I'm not. Time to
put my money where my mouth was. I don't know whether I'll ever do it again, but at least this time, it was worth the time and effort.